Do you remember you first hypno-crush?<\/p>\n
Can you remember the first time you realized there was a woman out there who would gladly hypnotize you?<\/p>\n
Can you remember the first mp3 you heard? The first sample? The first time you put yourself in a place to be hypnotized?<\/p>\n
I was 17 when I discovered erotic hypnosis. I was sharing the family computer and learning quickly how to cover one\u2019s tracks.<\/p>\n
I was learning with every mcstory and every sample clip I was downloading then and promptly deleting (while hoping it would work on our first gen IMAC) after a listen, that the fantasy I had inside of me for as long as I can remember was real.<\/p>\n
Do you remember that feeling?<\/p>\n
Maybe you\u2019re in the middle of that journey yourself.<\/p>\n
Maybe you\u2019re just a little too young to be reading this yourself.<\/p>\n
Or maybe you\u2019re just remembering what it was like to have that journey yourself.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I think about those early days, discovering Inraptured when it was spelled differently and was just a story site.<\/p>\n
Or when it was taken over by someone who partnered up with Krystal Mesmer and put some of her stuff up on the site.<\/p>\n
Stuff that I could not figure out how to make work on that IMAC, in no small part because I was afraid of downloading anything that could give away my secret fetish, especially on a shared family computer.<\/p>\n
I had the same experience with all the sample audio and video content on Krystal\u2019s site too.<\/p>\n
Can you imagine just turning 18, finally having a little bit of money and deciding what you were going to spend it on?<\/p>\n
A year subscription to Privatepages.com was my first erotic hypnosis related purchase. Privatepages was a membership site that had hypnosis themed photo manips.
\nThis was 2000, the Collective as it exists now was a long way away.
\nKrystal Mesmer used to have a membership site too.
\nA month subscription was my second purchase.<\/p>\n
I was petrified that my online purchases would have a paper bill\/proof of purchase that would be mailed to my family home.<\/p>\n
Do you get anxious and excited when you wait some a file to download?<\/p>\n
Do you anticipate when it is going to be done; can you think of that particular feeling?<\/p>\n
Do you remember dial up? I had 28k dial up for a very long time. The videos I downloaded, to be watched then deleted until we got a zip drive attachment, took forever.
\nThis was one of the reasons I didn\u2019t buy any MP3s for a long time.<\/p>\n
There would have been nowhere to keep it that wouldn\u2019t run the risk of discovery.<\/p>\n
I would sit and wait for a 5-12 minute video to download, the anxiety building, the thrill building.<\/p>\n
You might have this feeling sometimes now, when you know you\u2019re going to buy a new file, or you knew you\u2019re going to go home and listen to a file.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s all you can want, all you can think about.<\/p>\n
All I could think about was Krystal Mesmer.<\/p>\n
Krystal\u2019s cleavage in those breast focused videos. Krystal as the sexy teacher, as the sexy powerful woman, me just a young man, me enamored and infatuated with her.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m still, I\u2019ve recently discovered, infatuated with her.<\/p>\n
Can you imagine those last powerful throws of puberty melding with the wonderful realization of your fantasies coming true?<\/p>\n
Can you imagine the feeling of those forces colliding in your mind, dominating your thoughts before you even hear the words surrender, or sleep.<\/p>\n
Can you remember that powerful feeling of wonder and want, that need to let go of everything in her voice?<\/p>\n
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I am not a good subject, but I am getting better.<\/p>\n
My first Krystal Mesmer recording was a Touch of Krystal.<\/p>\n
When I hear her voice, when she takes me into her class, I am still the same young man, still experiencing my first hypno-crush.<\/p>\n
Earlier today I listened to a Touch of Krystal again, and I\u2019m fairly sure I moved past the warm, quiet, passive state for at least 20 minutes. Do you know that feeling? The sense of having fallen asleep, but knowing you weren\u2019t napping?<\/p>\n
I\u2019m not a good subject, but Krystal Mesmer has been teaching me to go a little deeper.<\/p>\n
When I hear her voice now, my body moves into a very still and quiet place. I listen to her voice and sometimes the triggers slide by, and sometimes I hear a word and the realization that I am responding catches up to me almost as fast as the suggestion itself.<\/p>\n
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I didn\u2019t realize Goddess Marquesa and Krystal Mesmer were the same person at first.<\/p>\n
I think my first Marquesa recording was the now titled Wonderific Surrender.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve been listening to Surrender a lot lately.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ll go back-to-back with that and Wet Dream Siren, training myself to be more suggestible, training myself to be a better subject.<\/p>\n
I know I\u2019m safe losing 20 minutes of time, I know I\u2019m safe letting go, and you might know what I feel, or you might be able to imagine what I feel.<\/p>\n
You might relate to everything I\u2019m saying.<\/p>\n
You might dream of everything I\u2019m saying.<\/p>\n
You might be looking for this experience, and you might now know that Krystal and Marquesa have a professional clinical background.<\/p>\n
You might now know that She knows what we desire.<\/p>\n
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I\u2019m not a good subject, but I let myself know I\u2019m getting better, because she\u2019s helping me get better.<\/p>\n
She answers my questions, and I hardly have to email to ask. Her files tell me what I need to know, what I can expect.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I realize I\u2019m not a good enough subject for the files I\u2019ve purchased, but I know that I\u2019m getting closer and it makes me want it more.<\/p>\n
Do you ever want more?<\/p>\n
Do you know what that\u2019s like to realize you\u2019re not quite at a place where you can let that once and a while place where you\u2019ve gone into the darkness?<\/p>\n
Do you wonder why you can sometimes and other times you can just be passive and quiet?<\/p>\n
I know the only thing that matters is making the right choices to be a better submissive subject.<\/p>\n
I know because it\u2019s right for me, and it\u2019s what She wants.<\/p>\n
She wants what I want.<\/p>\n
You might know what it\u2019s like to want, maybe you want to think about wanting Krystal.<\/p>\n
You might want to think about submitting to Marquesa.<\/p>\n
It might be what you\u2019re looking for.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s been what I\u2019ve been looking for.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve had some great experiences with some wonderful women, some I\u2019ll never have again but will cherish always, and across all of those experiences I know the truth:<\/p>\n
I am not a good subject.<\/p>\n
I am not a good submissive.<\/p>\n
But I know with Her, I know with my wants and her wants, with my will and her will, I know She will help me get where I want to be.<\/p>\n
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