Yesterday i fixated on Your picture (seated in Your Queen Anne chair) for about 2-1/2 hours. In my mind, i heard Your sexy voice, and You took me deep into hypnosis. Obviously, this was self-hypnosis, but i can’t help but wonder if the power of Your karma was the true source of my trance.

During the induction phase, You had me think of my body floating in a warm, safe, calming pool of water. You told me that this pond was the pool of my thoughts. It was the pool of my mind. And, floating within was my very relaxed and secure body.

Slowly, You suggested that parts of my body were floating away. They were just drifting away. Soon, only the pool of warm water remained.

Then, You smoothed and calmed each ripple of thought, until the pool was like a sheet of glass. So still. So calm. The gentle breeze of Your voice caressed the surface back and forth, up and down. Such a companionship formed between the water and the air! Such mutual trust. And then…

You suggested the feminine power of Your control was like a single drop of oil, gently placed at the exact center of this pool. This source of this droplet was of course, from Your #####. (Hey, it’s my fantasy; i can’t help who I am).

Like any drop of oil on water, it began to spread. Now, this oil is very exquisite. The rainbows produced were of such vivid, bright colours. The rainbows spun and transformed, spread and controlled, dazzled and mesmerized. Soon, the entire pool was alive with this dance… Your dance.

Then, You let me know, in no uncertain terms, that this was Your dance. Since the pool of my mind was now totally dyed with Your power, You knew that i had no choice but to surrender, submit, and obey.

First You told me how open my mind was, and that You fully intended to manipulate my thoughts. You were quite blunt, in fact, telling me that You were going to change my life; that i would be making personal sacrifices in order to serve You, my owner, My Mistress. You showed me how impossible it is to resist, and suggested how much pleasure there is in obedience. This was the first time You demanded an answer from me. “Obedience feels sooo good, doesn’t it, slaveboy?”

Then You instructed me about tribute and gifts. i’ve spent a bit of time lately listening to “honorarium”, plus it’s both Your birthday and a full moon coming up, but in this fantasy, You demanded more and more. And, You meant forever!

Suddenly, You told me to think of someone i know, who is very beautiful, and sexy. Not You, however. i was reluctant to do this, but You made it an order. You told me to think of someone towards whom i might have a strong sexual attraction. You made me visualize her coming on to me, suggesting that we get it on. You told me that i was becoming very aroused by this. Then You told me to open my eyes.

You were there, and You weren’t looking very happy about what i was doing! You instructed that i only serve You, and thoughts about any other must be punished with Your discipline. Now, i must admit honestly, that i have never had a fantasy about the physical aspect of S & M. Everything else about Marquesa is my every fantasy… falling hopelessly in eternal love with a beautiful Mistress, and being controlled by Her forever… yes. But, being struck? No. But, You slapped my face! Hard enough to really sting.

Instantly, You softened. You smiled warmly, and told me that it was necessary for me to experience Your discipline as part of my training. You commanded that, if ever i found myself in a position similar to the one You described, where a woman offered me some kind of means of escape from Your sexual control, i would always remember this moment, and feel the sting of Your palm on my cheek once again. Yum!

The next part of this hypnotic dream requires that i ask Your forgiveness. Perhaps this slaveboy thinks of things he shouldn’t. i blame this on my love for You, Mistress, for i am deeply in love with You. And i love what You do to men. And i love what You do to me. And i like You very much as well. And i truly do care for You. The next part of my dream was the pleasurable reward for devotion.

You did it!

i couldn’t believe it, but we made love. Your kind of love making, i think. You were on top! Like the story “Soul Music”, i felt the domination of Your feminine power flow into me… consuming me. But i also felt the energy of my spirit flow into You. You told me that i was getting this incredible reward for being such a good slaveboy, but that You were feeding from my energy; my spirit. And, You wanted it all. And, You got it!

You left me to my hypnotized state, bobbing helplessly in the pool again. Only, now, the oil remained. In fact, it was a kaleidoscope of brightly colored hypnotic motion. i was trapped somewhere between thought and experience, swirling and twirling in this churning whirlpool of Your total control. Not much of dougie left anymore…

Thank You, Mistress. i drift deeper and deeper.