wonderful time today. i Love You so very much, my Goddess. All the time i spend with You or serving You is the best time i ever have. Being with You is wonderful not just in the sense that it is pleasant and often exhilarating but also that it doesn’t just flitter by, it doesn’t seem that hours pass as quickly as minutes, even though the inevitable end is always a bit of a downer, being left until next time…

i listened to Eternal Love earlier tonight, Mistress. Hell of a trip. i always love it right when i listen to a new tape of Yours for the first time, right when it hits my virgin brain, because i am going in fresh, not expecting, not knowing what to expect, taking everything in so much faster and more easily that i can understand or quantify it all. i pretty much went gray about a quarter of the way through the tape, lost all but the barest awareness of the fact that i was jerking and listening to Your voice. it really didn’t feel like the other times i have been hypnotized, this was hotter, my head was a lot more clusterfucked and adrift and overloaded with heat and desire,…different, but definitely super. i liked this tape, i liked it a lot, Mistress. it was deeper and hotter still than Worship, nastier in a sense, You talking about Your pussy, naked on the bed…, put a real upward curve on everything. Your voice work on the tape is exquisite, i really especially like the part when You harshly command “Say it!” (i don’t remember what the specific phrase was to be said), Your sweet, seductive voice sandwiching a command, a direct, firm admonition that touches sooo deep, and promises sooo much. That made it real, that was the Mistress Marquesa i know and love. Mistress, i know we talked today about my plan, to focus on one tape each month, and to work on Worship now, and that You told me to listen to Eternal Love just once, but when oh when can i hear it again, Mistress? i really gotta get into it some more…, oohh so eager, all good things to those who wait, right? i definitely would be very, very much in the market for Your notional “nasty” tape, where You really talk dirty and get harsh, like You talked about last Friday. If the material on Love is maybe a bit of a prelude, i can hardly wait…

it took me a bit of time to get off, i had to keep going a bit after You commanded me to “come”, Mistress. i was a bit sore (one semi-unfortunate side-effect of the PA is a bit of soreness around the ring with only a bit of play, small price to pay and it really only means anything at all when i’m grabbing the pilot’s stick and flying solo and i have to slow down a bit, catch my drift?), in part from playing with myself listening to Worship through the past week and from the play with the leash today, but i’m definitely hacking it. That leash seems like a lot of fun, i’m just glad that it is in Your skilled, experienced, delicate hands, Goddess. the tie on my cock and balls was nice, i kept it on until i played with myself a bit, over two hours (i took it off around 9:30). Very very generous of You to use a bit of Your stocking and let me take it with, excellent material and a very fine relic from You. i’ll keep it in my nightstand, next to the rope You left me tied with in a similar way after our second session.

of course i had a wonderful time today at Your place today, Mistress. Glad as could be to help with Your computer needs. Soo very gracious and generous of You to buy lunch for me during, as well as the excellent free tape and going all the way out of Your way to give me a ride home. i would do anything i could for You in a heartbeat, Mistress, with no expectation of reciprocity, but it is very lovely to know that You appreciate my efforts. That validates me as Your slave and leaves me singing inside. Our bit of play in the “guest” room near the end left me exuberant. That leash is really something, Mistress. We can have a lot of fun with that. You have a chain one too, yes? i love being on my knees, at Your feet, as You look down and manipulate my manhood as You will and i get too look upon Your radiance and dominance from the proper position. i even love it when i’m below You and You work on the computer, although the light from the screen doesn’t quite do Your face justice, Mistress, i can still study it, measure it, record it as best i can in my mind in the hopes that maybe i’ll be able to remember it accurately in my fantasies and dreams. when i’m naked before You, it is even better, for then i have the fullness of You seeing that i should be Your eager, happy, obedient slave, my Goddess.