Setting a Standard Called Endurance

It’s My blog and so I was just thinking…….

A Mistress / Goddess worthy of Her title has need to endure many things while in the company of Her adoring subjects.

For example, standing and walking in very, very high heeled boots or shoes for any length of time is far from comfortable, yet She endures the discomfort for the image expected of Her.

Enduring a corset is also a sacrifice, as well as wearing leather, latex or stockings in the warmer months.

She can endure unsavory sights, sounds and smells in the course of a session, particularly in regards to clinical or adult infantilism fantasies.

She must endure tedium at times, if a submissive’s desires do not stimulate or challenge Her.

She will endure Her own painful experiences in the course of dispensing yours, such as the stinging in Her palm  during a barehanded spanking or an accidental splash of hot wax obviously not meant for Her.

Her endurance must and always will outlive yours if She is to effectively mold you into Her well-trained and pliable little puppy!  😉

Diary Entry Day 7 –

Mistress Marquesa emailed me some further instructions to help me become Her “alice.” When i am at home, i am going to have to dress as alice except just before leaving my house and just after entering my house. This means i am going to have to get some curtains for my kitchen green house window. Luckily all my other windows have only distant views or have blinds. i am going to have to keep some female clothes that don’t look too female handy so i can answer the door.

Mistress Marquesa believes in the power of affirmations to help mold peoples minds. Every night just before going to bed, i am to write Her email and type 20 time:

i am alice and belong to Mistress Marquesa

i must become a perfect marvelously masochistic lesbian slave.

In the morning, i must kneel in a feminine manner and repeat Her commandments.

Dairy Entry Day 8-

During the last few days, my desire to become ‘alice’ has been becoming stronger and stronger. In my earlier years, my fantasies centered around constriction and discomfort of feminine clothes. i also liked the feel of satin, silk, and leather. i never thought i wanted to live my life as female. i never thought of myself as having feminine qualities.

However, now i know my emotional behavior has always been somewhat female as has many of my hand motions.  i have never enjoyed straight sex and have had very few relationships with women.  i have in the past  been married for 10 years. i am not gay even though i have had fantasies of forced homosexuality . Part of my burning desire to become female is wanting to be Mistress Marquesa’s girlfriend.

i know i do not have a chance of being her boyfriend and i accept this as being natural and right.

alice